So here I sit on New Years Eve of 2012,at my beloved sisters place in Kalmar.
Feels very good to spend new year with her even if my heart isn´t here,it´s somewhere completley different...in an another country...
So 2012,what has happened?
A shitload I would say.. Last new year I was living in a town called Umeå way up in northern Sweden,didn´t really wanna move there but I just didn´t had the balls and selfconffident to say no! Lived there until end of May when the move took us to Stockholm.
I really liked Stockholm,it´s a beautiful city but when we came there something happened with me... I didm´t recognize myself,couldn´t see myself in the mirror and say that "this is me!" so I did what I had to and that was to break up with my current girlfriend...painful...yes,you just don´t erease 5,5 years,but the feelings weren´t there and I discovered later that they really haven´t been for quit some time. I packed what I needed and took the first train home...and with that I of course meen Gothenburg.
Moved in with my good friend Rickard,who even if he didn´t really had the room for it welcomed me with open arms,and let me sleep on an air madress on the floor in his tiny tiny appartment.
I stand in big gratitude and debt to that young man!
After a couple of weeks ( like 8!!) I got another offer to move in with my other great friend Jake and I could place a bed in his kitchen..ok,it was only the kitchen,but i could close the door around me and sleep in a real bed. He took the best of care of me and also to that young lovely man I stand in great gratitude and debt!
I also found refuge at my friend Jonny who had an appartment he didn´t lined an at the time so I had somewere to "hide" and be by myself when needed. And also of course my loving mother how always held her door open for me.
But finally I got my own appartment back since I was sub-lending it to a friend and I had made a promise to him and I had no intentions in kickin´him out...I managed and got by antway!
To all of you who have been offering me shelter and a roof over my head for those 5 months I stand in the biggest gratitude...always in my heart my friends!
And of course this year has been filled with music...a lot of music...tried to re-cap it all but it´s more or less impossible,simply to much...and to much alcohol as well to be honest...if you´re not happy and you get it for free,it´s easy to self-medicate,and a lot off it!
But there has been some truly awesome shows...
Töreboda festivalen knocked me with surprise and the after party was one of the best...hot tub...boooze...warm summer nights...and guns ;) hahaha...you who were there know what I´m talking about...
Wacken Open Air.... HOLLY TOLEDO!!! played in the worlds biggest tent with a capacity of 10 000 people and it was packed to it´s limit!! It´s something you have to experienceto be able to understand I guess...
Our hometown show at the funpark Liseberg... I could never guess that so many people would come to see us in our own hometown Gothenburg,but it did and we gave a killer show with everything included...pyro...bigscreens...dummies...simple the works!!
And of course our first show in the US of A... Progpower in Atlanta was a big experience and I wish to go back soon...
Other shows that will forever stay in my heart will of course be Qstock in Oulu, Finland and Kokkola Rock also in Finland.... not so much because of the shows...more because of love... I met somone that completley stole my heart and at first sight I understood that...YEPA,this is it ;)
Thanks to this amazing and very loveable woman I´ve learned more about myself than I done in the last 10 years,I now understand what´s important in life and what to fight for,and i will go on fighting for love and it is so totally worth it.
Yepa...this is it...and YEPA my Queen... as long as you are standing on the other side I will continue jumping those fences,no matter how high they might seem...just because it is simply worth it! I LOVE YOU MY QUEEN...FOR SURE SURE!
But that was 2012 in short...so what about 2013?
Well...new album with AMARANTHE coming out in march and it will be an intense years to say the least,touring touring and then some more touring...time to go to the gym to get in shape,it´s going to be needed I can tell...but i think we´ll have a great time :)
New Year Resolutions?
Well why not...
I promise to gain World Domination...richness...stand up for myself and my opinions and most goddamn important... I PROMISE TO KEEP ON JUMPING THOSE FENCES FOR AS LONG NEEDED!!
Happy New Year my friends old aas new ones...see all in 2013 and enjoy the ride ;)
It's the night before Christmas Eve and I would like to wish all of you a wonderful Christmas!
Try to remember that we're supposed to take care off each others,not only tomorrow since there's 364 other days on the year where you can show your love,respect and appriciation to the ones you love!
And most of all,tomorrow is a holiday that belongs to the children...give them nice and loving memories about Christmas, not nightmares and tears...
Well...take care my friends...have a wonderful Christmas no matter how you chose to spend it!
Love...and respect to you all!
So...it's been a while since the last one and alot has happenend since then! Don't know how to re-cap without rambling to much but here we go 😉
Working a lot....bodyhurting....broken plans...hurts alot...trying to plan the future....hopefully it will fall in place...maybe been drinking to much...no good...but I'm dealing with that as of right now...missing...INSANELY MUCH...loving...just as much...thinking...maybe more then I should...stop thinking...good decision...staying up to late...getting to bed earlier,simple as....taking care of buisness...oh yes...feeling good....feeling sad...feeling angry...feeling pissed off....nothing strange with that...feeling loved...hell yepa...videoshoot...oh yes...good conversations with very good and loving people...oh yes,biggest of gratitude...temporary worn out...HELL YES...but most important...NOT GIVING UP!!!!
Take care my friends...family...loved ones and enemies... Without you all life would be pretty f***ing boring and pointless ;)
Ta-ta!
